9:59 AM♠ Friday, October 31, 2008
overslept..
hahaha.i overslept today.not going sch on fri again n my mum was slightly concerned abt mi.doesnt matter to mi anymore.later gonna find a way to scan my artworks using sis com.heard she said her com crashed.YESSSSSSSS HAHAHAHAHA!!!!still haven finish my work on the catfish character design.thats another reason why i skip sch today too ^^later i tink im going to drop by at rain's house again liao.disturb her from sprayin her 2nd uni.hohohothe forums in sgclub has gotten quiet.i wonder why.i miss yuuka's spamming at sgclub.i hope next mth is a beta mth for mi bah.since this mth i kept getting framed by someone for no reason.yes next mth will be a beta mth for mi definitely.and im not a emo person.juz that when my family says this kind of shit to mi...aiyawill definitely feel emo de mah.im alright now ^__^coz i still got my team and other online frends.not forgetting nasi lemak oso.(she's rather encouraging this few days)i reali appreciate it.thx nasi.ok sounds funny.
posted at 9:59 AM
10:16 AM♠ Tuesday, October 28, 2008
im still tired....
yes im still tired.didnt had enuff slp again over this long weekend.
today no sch yay~coz teachers got meeting
gonna finish up my character design of catfish.and i drew chibi laviyuu.
decided to let them wear 3rd uni XDD -faints-
and finally some pics of my classroom.
and finally showing who is nasi lemak that im toking abt.
(shes the one wearing blue shirt)
nasi is a very nice person.good in shading.
and theres another classmate of mine.
we oways go home tgt aft sch.XDD such frends makes ur day feel beta..
im gonna get scoldings tmw.coz 4th sis simply refused to help mi transfer camera pics into her com.dam her she's reali a bitch man.
shit oways happens to mi.
n i woke up today...very nice...
my mum nagged at mi for not clearing the dishes ytd.
HEY I DID!
but my 4th sis put back the bloody bowl back on the table!
n mum tot i didnt do my job! *che*
i got framed again.F _ _ K lar.
and i quarrel with her over the bringin of frends issue.
and she said "dun bring ur frends over to our house again."
great.juz great.
juz when i tot my mum is ok with mi again.see wad happens now.
u tell mi.
wad i can do.
when u guys start to frame mi n stuffs lik this.
u tell mi how to treat u guys nicely when all this shit happens.
u started it 1st, not mi.
so dun say i nv care abt the family ok. U GUYS started it.
treat mi lik shit, ask mi to contribute 30 bucks for my dad's bdae celebration,
wa u tink im ATM arh dun nid $$ to buy my own stuffs!
asking mi to wash the dishes in an obvious way,
FRAMING mi for wad i have not done,
rushing to the toilet when i juz come back home lik wad my eldest sis likes to do in the past,
come on.i nid a serious break from this F _ _ King shit.
so pls dun be surprised when i reali leave the house one day.
coz u guys are sort of forcing mi to leave the house wad.
i've oredi forgotten how it feels lik to have family warmth long time ago.
everyday i come back, its lik nobody cares abt mi coming home anymore.
they juz watched their own TV program.
where's all the "hi ure back!"
its all so cold now.why.
my 4th sis didnt treat mi lik this last time.we hanged out tgt alot last time.
but now i dun even feel lik toking to her anymore.
i reali dun understand my family now.
its lik ever since i cosplay, all this started to happen...
the onli ones that care abt mi is prob my 3rd sis,
which im reali thankful for that.at least she supports mi cosplayin.
n i reali appreciate it.at least she still ask mi got pics to see anot.
n checking out my costumes n stuffs lik that.
i felt lik crying that time when she said this to mi.
coz no one in my family gives a dam for mi.not even asking mi "how's ur day?"
but at least i still remem someone in this family.
thou she's married oredi but i still noe someone cares abt mi. *sobs*
one day if she reali nid help, i will give my everything to help her.
and remem this.
when u reali make mi hate u.
and i registered into my brain that ure my enemy.
even if ure gonna die right in front of my eye, that includes my family.
i will witness ur death, not helpin u.
yes im that cruel.even to my family.
u can say im cruel or cold blooded.
i dun care.coz if u reali noe mi well,
u noe i wun do this to you.
u can ask rain or risa for this.
or at least i wun do this to my frends.
posted at 10:16 AM
4:10 PM♠ Thursday, October 23, 2008
-day 9-
i tink im gonna skip sch tmw.seriously im so tired coz didnt had much sleep lately..
n have a nice sleep tonight...
arh...my wish came true..skipping lessons for this term...
more projects came..yay~
nid 2 take pics of numbers.here's a list of them:
-jersey number
-door number
-lunar calendar
-clock
-calculator
still got many more but nvm juz these few will do ^^
and i slacked in sch today coz teacher said got no classrooms for my class.
wow.
1st time i got no classroom.we lik refugee camp..some went to other side.
while some stayed put.
my teacher was angry with the ITE management.haha.
n FA sat beside mi at the com lab.
F_ _ _.suay sia i cant change my com oso.
and he seems to be enjoying it.worst.
im in the same project grp as him for life skills.
god dam it.
i nid some pomelo leaves to wash away my bad luck.
n im super hungry today.
felt that i can eat my whole house up.
kae im gonna raid more food from the fridge now.
posted at 4:10 PM
4:53 PM♠ Wednesday, October 22, 2008
taking a nap..
i took alot of naps recently...got alot of inspiration after the naps..duno why oso...my drawings are getting beta now...and i've got tons that i wan to draw now..naps seems to give mi ideas somehow...and YES!FA didnt come to sch today!!! -pops champagne--lights firecracker-HOORAY!!!!at least i dun nid 2 see that pathetic face of his.so irritating.and i reali wonder why he keeps looking at me when he OREDI had a gf.che.useless man get out of my sight.and i nid to hand in assignment on friday.shucks i wana go RP de leh.i tink i shld juz pass to nasi tmw my work.n tell her to submit for mi on friday.gosh.i reali dread going to sch now...and now i reali get to see ppl's character now.some stick with new frends n abandon old frends completely.others gave up on coming to sch.some continue to slack.while there are oways the bunch of ppl that are hardworking as usual.humans are reali weird.but well, im a human too!guess i will continue to work hard n draw hard too.and do more research on how to draw beta n shade beta too.afterall.drawing technique is somethink that cannot be learnt within a day.u nid practice.lik wad im doing now.trying hard to practice drawing 3/4 view and it turns out great ^^
posted at 4:53 PM
11:09 PM♠ Tuesday, October 21, 2008
-interesting quiz from kuroii's blog-
got this from kuroii's blog...Rachel uses judgment to make decisions. She is ruled by her head, not her heart. She is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see her as unemotional. She does have emotions but has no need to express them. She is withdrawn into herself and enjoys being alone.
quite true..im bad at expressing myself somtimes...The circumstances when Rachel does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets her mad enough to tell her off, she will not be sorry about it later. She puts a mark in her mind when someone angers her. She keeps track of these marks and when she hits that last mark she will let them know they have gone too far. She is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All her conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. She is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, she has poise.
FA is a good example of this...Rachel will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. She would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, she will show her love by the things she does rather than by the things she says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because she feels her mate should already know. The only exception to this is if she has logically concluded that it is best for her mate to hear her express her love verbally.
i nid to be alone in order to do work...thats a fact for mi ^^Rachel is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to her, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of her sound judgment. She will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. She will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and she will always ask "Is this best for me?"
i onli buy things that are reali useful..well there are times when i buy useless stuffs too...People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Rachel doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.
o.ORachel will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!
O.O!In reference to Rachel's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Rachel slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.
She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Rachel can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.
Rachel is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Rachel basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.
i dun lik to delay projects..coz can see the sufferings of myself if i drag it on...Rachel is having a lack of physical energy at the time this handwriting was written. If someone has very short and straight down lower loops (like in the y or g), this indicates this person's physical drive (activity or sex) is compromised. Usually, this indicates the person simply isn't interested in getting too physical right now. This could be a temporary mood which often happens when the body is sick and is healing. Or, this could be a result of an emotional or physical issue that is effecting Rachel 's energy level and interest in sex. Sex doesn't seem to be a priority at the moment.
this is soooo lol lar...=____='''Rachel has a very unusual lower zone y loop. If the data input is correct, Rachel's y or g is large and opens up to the left side of the page. This is not a common trait, but the implications are very interesting. As you begin to study handwriting analysis, you will learn any loop indicates imagination. This lower loop indicates the amount of imagination Rachel has regarding sex and physical things. So, her lower zone stroke is large, so her sexual imagination is large and open. Furthermore, because the loop is incomplete and extends to the left, this indicates a particular fascination with certain aspects of sexuality that have not been fulfilled, yet. In a nutshell, Rachel is open to some very new ideas sexually and is willing to try anything once.
im a yaoi fan so wad more do u expect from mi XDDFor a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Rachel has no white space or margins on a typical sheet of paper. Rachel fills up every last inch on the top, right, left, and bottom. Hmmm. If this is true, then Rachel has a very aggressive personality toward others and quite frankly lacks a bit of respect for the space and property of other people. I would be surprised if Rachel just comes into someone's home and helps herself to a drink in the refrigerator. This can be both an obnoxious personality trait and it can be assertive and effective in getting what you want. There isn't much fear of getting in trouble here, Rachel finds plenty of reasons to break the rules and get in trouble. (Okay, perhaps when she was younger, not anymore?) Basically, people with no margins are a handful.
hahaha...i onli did that once when i went to a very good frend house...open fridge n take drinks from there -__-''''''''''
posted at 11:09 PM
4:39 PM♠
-Day 7-
yay.i finally finish my assignments but there comes another one again.FA is still oways looking at mi.i reali suspect sumting wrong with him.more drawings of character poses....n risa got promoted to sec 4!!!u bet i was dam happy for her XDDbut guess wad.i got a GPA of 1.5...which is lik super low lor...i have to reali buck up for this sem...i reali wonder why am i so stupid..exam grades is so dam lousy lor...IM REALI A STUPID PERSON!!!!gosh.i still have 7 more weeks to go now b4 EOY...omg.how to survive sia?-faints-oh...and i dl more laviyuu to my yaoi collection.im now dl walker family since it was recommended by rain..lolmore yaoi collection for my own interest hurhur~~seriously yaoi can make my day so much better...
posted at 4:39 PM
12:00 PM♠ Sunday, October 19, 2008
sunburn...
hehe.went swimming with rain,risa,road,ryan,cheesy,gumok n shouji.
had loads of fun ytd as shouji was dancing in the waters.EPIC.
and we went to the lazy river 1st then went to the wave pool.juz nice we kena the wave sia~
=w= its was fun.n rain forgot how to swim but we tried to teach her.
guess swimming is something that cannot be mastered within a day coz i remem i burnt my whole sec 3 dec holidays learning how to swim..n now i learnt frog style n free style..
anyways,after the swimming rain n risa bought some food from KFC.
i love the cheese fries~~
n we went to lucky plaza to makan the ayam penyet there n of coz the happy soda...
didnt do much later as all of us are dam tired.
n thats when i realise i kena sunburn until quite bad..
my whole arm is red.
and when i woke up today, i realise that the sunburn was even more worse than i tot it was.
my back was red, n the neckbone area oso kena sunburn.
whole arm is still rather red...n my face is like guan gong now red nia...
this shows that the sun is reali strong in the afternoon...
so guys pls dun try this at home..LOL..
i finally finished my storyboard for mr riduan's class...now left ms tan's photojournal home work n uncle ee's character design which is a creature that looks lik catfish...wth..
more work for this week i guess...
and im still tired..n tmw i gonna have lesson all the way till 5pm..
nice one..
posted at 12:00 PM
3:10 PM♠ Friday, October 17, 2008
-Day 5
nice.day 5 of my new sch term.i kena another character design assignment. muz sketch out 10 poses of the character,5 facial expressions,1 model sheet.
loads more.omg i cant believe this is only the 1st week and i kena two character design liao woots~some pics of my rough sketches below:
yea i noe its messy...actuali my room is reali in a big mess now...didnt had much time to clean it up ever since my tertiary education started...so yea hehe...shall post some pics taken out of boredom juz now...
hahaha.looking forward to tmw coz im going out with my team ^^
so muz be guai kia n chiong finish my assignments....*sobs*
cannot slack for this term... -jiayous to myself-
posted at 3:10 PM
4:34 PM♠ Thursday, October 16, 2008
Day 4
nice.juz got back from sch after a long day.and i duno why FA is lik staring at nasi today.she told mi abt this.i was pissed abt him too.coz 1 of my classmates came n ask mi why i didnt tok to him n another guy anymore.then my reply was "coz they lik didnt want to tok to mi too".i tried my best to tok to them but they juz treated mi lik shit.and he still have the cheek to tell that classmate of mine abt the things that weren't true!seriously...get the Fucking hell out of my sight now.i have no wish to tok 2 you again FA.i hate sch.i hate FA n WJ.why did i even get to know them when i felt so hurt now.since the 1st day of sch, we had been best friends.but look at where we are now.is it my prob or is it other's prob?juz look at this mess now.u tink i lik it?u tink i dun wana tok 2 u guys is it?HAH?!walau u guys are lik ignoring mi oso.juz take a good look at yourself n stop telling other ppl that i PS u guys ok.i had enuff of all this nonsense.its shit.full of shit.and ppl got the cheek to tell nonsense right in front of you.
posted at 4:34 PM
4:43 PM♠ Wednesday, October 15, 2008
New school term
omg.new sch term sucks man.so tired n exhausted from sch liao n its lik barely three days only.got loads of new assignments.i juz kena one character design again.AGAIN.
n i got a new haircut.i bet rain's tim sure love my head now.....
i wish sch starts next week seriously..im soooo dam tired.duno why oso..
and i didnt tok to fa n wj..i mean i didnt reali had a nice convo with them.
its lik fa is sooo hostile to mi now and i seriously oso dun feel lik toking to him anymore coz he treats mi lik invisible so i shall do that to him too then. F*$K off seriously.
now im hanging out with nasi lemak n other ppl n i reali didnt wana tok 2 them anymore.
its lik got some barrier now when i wana tok to them.haiz see lar humans change.
i reali hope i dun change for the worst.
i feel that sch reali sucks now.IT SUCKS A HELL LOAD.
i duno why this is happening to mi.i used to tink sch is fun ever since i graduated from sec sch.
but see wad's happening now to mi.AGAIN.
i wish i could stop time.
posted at 4:43 PM
11:07 AM♠ Sunday, October 12, 2008
Go Japan Matsuri~
Hohoho.ytd was fun.went out with my dgm team n some other frends from kurabu.there was a cosplay competition.so fun.rain n risa are lik shivering on the stage.didnt won anything but was a good exp to mi anyways.and 1 thing is for sure, kuroko likes to spam ppl.he's getting more random now hahaha thats a good thing to know ^^hope he's getting more opened up to us~wait.i tink he is getting more opened up from the way he spammed mi last nite with the small eyes. *che*had dinner with everyone.shouji had left earlier.trouble n her sis also went off soon after we finish our dinner.saw ace n noriko.i tink everyone is exhausted bah esp rain coz we did make her drink weird weird stuff the day b4 as we celebrated her bdae...hope she's alright..hahahahaha.and thats where kuroko turned evil..well i guess we all enjoyed ourselves during this two days coz im gonna start sch on mon.back to the kamen rider sutra n stuffs omg my earplucks pls T___T
posted at 11:07 AM
12:18 PM♠ Wednesday, October 8, 2008
New blog = Troublesome
nice.i got a new blog.used to have one but i forgot everything.so making a new one.
1 word.
ma fan.LOL-ed.
alot of things are still under renovation so pls bear with this plain blog 1st.
sian.later going out.
6pm collect contact lens from jade at AMK.
-jaw drop-
nice one
posted at 12:18 PM